Road To Nowhere

Every person have their own definition about life. No matter what it is, it always confusing coz what ever early prediction, its always never comes with an accurate outcomes. People said that put some sacrifices, hardworks and efforts in order to achieve the goals in life. The question is, how many sacrifices? what kind of efforts? coz sometimes we gamble everything we have but at the end still got nothing fail. Should we restart again? Now open your eyes, look within and ask, am I satisfied with this life I'm living? Is this the world I'm livin' in?

A good adviser told me that life is like a traveler. I have to find the road of success and move on the right track. Stand up when I fall down and keep on moving. What a good advise from a very good adviser. At the age of 25, I ask my self, am I on the right track on the right road? If yes then where is the colors of life? or maybe I was taking the wrong road and for this kind of situation, where this road are going to lead me to? Its going to bring me to nowhere until I find a signboard which clearly sounds " hey buddy, your lost. turn around and start again" OMG should I start again?

Some people also told me to read some kind of books to define what life is really is. I bet most of the people knew " Dare To Fail ", " Do Be Sad " " The Alchemist " and many more. they said read it, apply it coz life is like experiment, the more the better. I read and apply some method but at the end, where I am? I still stand up tall in the middle of nowhere. Then  I ask my self again, am I dare enough to fail? Do I look sad? or maybe I'm not the alchemist. After a fail experiment to another fail experiment, do I have to take one more shoot until I burn my house and come out in front page of local newspaper with a beautyFOOL headlines " Unrecognized Mentalist Succeed to Light Up a Fire on His House with His Stupid Theory " Is this a life for me?

If life is a game, do we have to play it? If life is a song, do we have to sing it? If life is a dream, do we have to realize it? If life is a challenge, do we have to meet it? If live is a love, do we have to enjoy it or if the life is sacrifices, do we have to offer it? Now its time for every each one of us to really think about this coz what ever solution we take, it will define who we are and what life is really is.

Or maybe we have to re think again this philosophy of life, fill what empty, empty what's full, scratch what itches or forget about the past, stop thinking about the present and don't dream about the future. In another simple theory call theory of stupidity, What ever Happen, HAPPEN. think it, swallow it and define it your self. coz for me life is unpredictable and always remain untold until we discovered the real meaning of L.I.F.E         

Can I... ? Can You... ?

 
This is just a simple question but it always make me wonder almost every time when some body throw this question to me, Can You? My answer is always a question mark, Can I?. A negative person like me is always calculating whatever outcomes when it comes to "maybe I can" or "maybe I can't". Some people call it, we have to play safe but there is still a big BUT, do the outcomes is really safe? So what is the actual answers? Am I really brave enough to say NO, I cant? or I'm too gentle to accept the challenge and say YES, I Can? No matter what is the answers, I still have to face two things just right after giving the answers. If I say I can, people will take in two different ways. First, maybe I really can. Second, it just a show off. If the opposite answer given, I can't, people will directly judge and forget to think our real capability and just simply think we are lazy and just living in our comfort zone. So, what is this all about? is it a question? is it an order? or it just a TEST?

Regarding on this matter, it brings me to a simple words call "The Power Of Believing". I have to believe in what I believe and forget about what others think. It doesn't really matter either I'm right or not coz its not them to determine the outcome but me. what ever result at the end of the story, people around me will just wait and give a comment on it. But it always comes a mystery coz in our society that we always promote a good attitude call " Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita " it make people give a very good respond and comment towards the result. If you succeed, people will say "you are really talented" and if you fail people will say "you already try your best and we appreciate your effort" But please bare in mind, don't ever take it for granted coz it shock you. That is not the real society we livin' in. It just an illusion, It just a sweet word to comfort you. So, what exactly happen? where is the mystery? Lets face the real world fella. This is our society, this is our community, this is our culture and this is the real " Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita " open your eyes and open your mind widely and get ready to jump into reality. You are going to get an impress comment at first in front of anybody else but in the different situation, provocation happen. Do you believe it or you just don't realize it. It doesn't really matter at this point and its not going to help you either. If you succeed, people will talk differently among them. You are going to hear this rumors roaming around " I can do better than him or if not because a help of his friend/relatives, he's not going to finish this task " If you fail, here's the famous word " I told you, he can't or if he can't do a simple task like this, how can we trust him to handle another task". Now, what exactly happen here? Is this the culture we believe? or it just a piece of s**t.

Now, what you guys think? are you really believe in what you believe or I'm just start to make you confuse? For get about this and lets take it in a positive way. here's the true story, a man born with no arms and legs and he always said I should have an arms, I should have legs, I can't do this, I can't do that, I'm not going to get married and I'm not going to get child, what kind of people I am? but that was before. Some of you maybe already knew him and some of you maybe don't. A small men with a big spirit that shock the world with his capabilities and he is NICK VUJICIC. He always said to his audience " Its a lie to think that you are not good enough and its lie to think that you are not worth anything" He believes in what he believe and because the power of believing he succeed to make people believe to believe him. Then now comes a time to ask our self, who am I? a normal human being with a complete figure. But, do I use my capabilities towards life? Do I ever make the world realize my existent? Do I belongs here? where was I'd been before? am I on the right track right now? What will happen to my future? Can I make my life worth to remember? Can I survive? Can I be like Nick Vujicic? Can I ? Can I ? Can I ? and a thousand of Can I will cross our mind and leave us with uncertainty with no possible answers. The only most nearest possible accurate answers is MAYBE but when?  Now, later, tomorrow, next year, next decade or NEVER. keep it for your self and answer it base on what you truly believe coz at the end of the day it will reveal who you are.

In order to find out the best illustration of life is only the realms of spirituality that we find the best explanation. As SWAMI VIVEKANANDA once wrote, “this inexplicable cycle of life and death can only be explained as Maya, an illusion. Beyond this lies our true self, our soul which is never born, that never dies, never changes and never goes or comes. Without birth or death, eternal, ever-existing, free, unchangeable and beyond all conditions is this soul of man , the real self of man”.

This real self is not easy as eating junk food to figure out coz our soul is hidden under the veil of Maya and it is only through the lens of life experiences that we can unveil the mystery and reacquaint ourselves with our hidden potentials. Just as a seed needs the right kind of soil, the perfect temperature, air and water to germinate, so too do we need the right circumstances to reveal our true nature. Without the proper opportunity our cherished ideals of bravery, courage, sacrifice, judgment, integrity and unconditional love would never fully manifest.

Think it, evaluate it, analyze it coz if it comes to me, I do really believe that there is something and always be something but still remain something untold.               

Who Is De' Idiots?

A lot of people keep on talking about the idiots, you make mistake then you are the idiot, you do something risky then you the idiot,you dress up like shit then you are the idiot, you do something extraordinary then you are the idiot. What ever we do from a normal life is always call being idiot. It doesnt really matter you are right or not but in the eyes of public, its always come with the terms " IDIOT"

So I come up with some sort of evaluation best on my experience being an idiot. The question is, who is the idiots? What are the idiots do? What are the normal people and the super genius do? There is always something in my mind, keep on thinking about it coz the old man quotes " Dont be afraid of being scared coz its a common sense but only the complete idiots didnt scared of anything " So what is that means? If I leave this to someone and he told me just forget it. it doesnt mean anything. If its have no meaning then why this quote exist? It make me realize that no matter how idiot I am, at least I still can think something posible.

Let makes this thing uncovered regarding of my theory call STUPIDITY. Idiots doesn't scared of anything. So, it possible to say that they are do what ever they want, enjoy their life and prove something bigger at the end of their story while the super genius keep on thinking and figure out the best way to demolish all the idiots and always come up with a new solution at the end of their research. then what is do normal people do? follow the the idiots and being idiots by telling people that its wasting money to higher the super genius with big salary but can prove something in their solution. Create something bigger is much more better than proving a solution. isn't that possible? Creating something is a proven methodology while solution is just a solution and need to be test either its work or not. Now who is the idiots?

Have you ever heard about Bill Gates? Thomas A. Edison? Ratan Tata? and many more. Who exactly they are? except Ratan Tata, the others are the idiots coz they didn't finish their study. Bill Gates withdraw form the university and no body cares about him. Thomas A. Edison call an idiots when he try to incubate the eggs. But now can somebody please tell me what is the first name cross your mind when somebody mention about Windows and Light? Someone call idiots invented the light make make the world brighter. Someone who have incomplete education make us easy to use computer and the person in the 100 dollar note become a president without education. Now, who use the windows? who admire Abraham L? The answer is YOU and ME. Now Who is the idiot?

Keep on complaining about the we dress? Lady Gaga keep on using something unusual and shock the world. She become more wealthy by selling millions of her album and the dress designer become more famous. Who is the customers? We are. A group call jackass try to prove what they call art of science and doing stupid thing most of the time and now they are very well known. Who admired them? We are. A country comedian from Papua call Upen ka Cupen to make fun on stupid things with their mother's tongue on Youtube and now they running their own TV program and even have their own movies. Who watched them? We are. Now, who is the idiots?

While all the idiots working hard of doing stupid things to prove something in other get something by wasting their time, money, energy and what ever they have,  we are busy on provoke something on something stupid in order to get nothing but wasting time, money, energy and what ever we have.

What is this all about? what exactly to me? am I an idiot? or I'm just like the others. soon they will be something to be an evidence on something I do to prove it. The only thing is, When and where? It still hidden behind the half transparent illusion wall in front of my open eyes and still remain untold.         

   

Spongebob Dengan Imaginasinya

Spongebob, wow what amazing cartoon character is it? it was influence me since I was a kid. I almost knew every single episode  and now matter how many times I watch it, I will still laugh all nite long. During my childhood I watch it coz I like it. But now I watch it coz I love it. There is one thing and one thing only that captured my mind about it. Its IMAGINATION. Its imagination makes almost everything possible and inspire now a days. I do not have to explain what imaginations is, coz every people have their own perception towards it and you, me and others have to accept  that imagination keep us alive.
Lets forget about Spongebob, I take one step ahead to make my own opinion regarding on this subject. Saya tidak kenal Mark Zukerberg, Albert Pike, L'enfant dan banyak lagi tokoh lain yang jadi legenda. what I know is their name and their bloody hell faces in the internet. But what exactly their do? Their imagination rule the world and make the entire world shacking. they just make their imagination alive in no matter how. Now, most of the people know what is Facebook, fremason, and other biggest creation from a small people like us.  I still can remember what Thomas Edison said, " Untuk mencipta lampu, I've burn my house and a lot of things. But, I never fail, what  ever happen along the way to the success is been call as a process"  what a words.  this kind of people are awesome  and really make me feel like I am the most idiot in this entire world roaming around with nothing.
Now, masa untuk tanya diri saya, what is exactly I'm doing in my life, what happen with my imagination? I am the one who put such a great imagination before. I was creating such a beautiful palace up in the air, so every time a see it, it will remind me to pun foundation below it in order to get there. Do i have to call this as a process? process of what? process of wasting time. This kind of thing is always make me wonder, but something has cross my mind lately, I realize something. Usually I'm asking my self what I have done to the world, I got the answer. I'm creating a billionaire, saya yang bertanggung jawab jadikan Mark Zukerberb Jutawan. kenapa saya tak sedar selama ini. And, the fact is, bukan saya saja but some of you guys also. we are working hard even really hard as a team to make his imagination come true. Betapa hebatnya saya, betapa hebatnya kita.  I should be proud of it and you guys too. kerja keras kita, Time has been wasted, energy , money, electricity, new laptop and everything. the best part is, we paid everything and get nothing. the most best part is, Mark is sitting in his luxury bungalow, drinking beer while watching his money increase from time to time. This is the power of imagination.
Its time to move fella, start make your day, maybe this is the rite time, I always heard this word from a friend of mine. Yes, I move, I'll make my day but maybe its not on the rite time. Forget about it, now I'm in my own process to give some breath to my imagination. Its going to be alive, I do believe it. If Karl Benz succeed of inventing a car, I'm succeed of driving it. Then what else, everything is already in front of my eyes. what I have to do is, Imagine a small thing and start make it bigger. that is how the imagination works. Sekecil biji sawi mampu membuat saya kenyang sepanjang hari. Did you guys got what it means? no body and no body start from the top accept orang yang terjun payung. Start from a smallest thing, take care of it, love it, feed it, do what ever it takes to make it grow. One day in somewhere there will be something that can be something . What ever and where ever it is, it always be a something  and till now it still hidden and unseen. its just alive in my imagination and still remain untold.

Dunia Dan Isinya

Dunia terus berputar meninggalkan kita terkapai-kapai bersama segala penghuninya. Life- is it good enought? or it just fooling around, no matter what it this, hidup mesti diteruskan..I do really fall in love whit this word " dunia dan isinya" , even I tried to use every sense that I have I still can figured it out what it is all about..people come and go, week in week out but do they really know about it? ask them and bet, for sure you will got the same answer almost every time. same question, same answers from a different subject. So, what do we call it? is it a myth? is it a secret? I leave it to every one of you to discover coz no matter what did you call it it will reveal as a personal opinion which is can explain who you are and who they are..

This is me and this is where I begin. Let me share something  what I learned from the fast regarding on what I try to explain. there is no mathematical theory or other mechanism to reveal everthing about this, but this is what I got, saya akan biarkan dunia terus berputar pada paksinya dan isinya adalah saya and all of you. so what makes me wonder is, do I really play my roll towards this process? do I really connect with others in order to be productive? do I really bend in with the nature to produce balance and harmony towards this world? no matter how far I go, no matter what theory I use, methods, facts even some kinda rumors that i blend in together to find out the most nearest accurate possibilities outcome, the result is always vary from time to time..getting tired and almost fed up with all of this junk then it make me realize that " dunia dan isinya" is not a myth for me, but it something about something that always be something uncovered and remain untold

Take this as a first piece of junk  from a dumb idiot ME. Calculate it, analyze it, figure it out. put some oxygen in and let the carbon out, close your  eyes and breath. open your eyes and Alhamdulillah Syukur we still alive..This is the beauty of the Almighty..