ILLOGICAL IN LOGIC

It’s been awhile I never been here. It’s not about laziness but is about idea. Writing without purpose is like coffee witout sugar. I rather choose to remind silence than talking nonsense coz for me, this kind of bullshit is simply like calculating numbers with the right format but come out with the wrong answers.

I was run out with Ideas until a friend of mine, yeah new friend, never meet him but shot me with this topic. I was thinking like damn, it’s a good topic to be discussed and why I never think this one before. To Whom It May Concern, thanks dude, I do appreciate it. I promise you I will give a fresh breath to this idea base on my own perception. Either you like it or not, I love it.

What is LOGIC? And what is ILLOGICAL? Take a deep breath, don’t panic coz the answers is very simple. Logic is simply something not illogical while illogical is for sure is not logic. It’s simple rite? I told you. Now, lets move a bit further. What happen to the world? Is it been develop or its been ruin? What happen to the civilization? Is it been better or worse than before? What happen to the human being? Are they become more genius or being an asshole? Everybody have their own answers coz you are the one who read it so you are the one who hold the answers. Don’t tell me and please don’t tell anybody else. You open your mouth they read your mind, they read your mind, they will define you. The good things is, you are going to face the reality, the bad thing is, I’m afraid its gonna hurt you, the worse thing is, it take ages to cure the wounds. So, watch out your mouth and take care your of heart coz nobody will but you.

Here is the best part about this topic, I don’t wanna talk about any body else but me. I was figure out some bad habit and illogical but become logic in my daily routine. Now I knew why I’m stupid enough to call stupid and shit, why I did all of this before without realizing the circumstances. What I did before is hunting me today. It goes back to me and become a ghost in my future. What a great fucking memories.

Technologies, it has been develop as fast as the light, trough all the process, it creates a lot of useful stuff to brighten our day and one of it it’s a gadget. A lot of types with a fancy brands from all over the world and I become the victim. Once again, I mention this in a very crystal clear that I’m not talking about anybody else but ME.

Take a look at this, this is what I’m doing before, I was succeed to beat Aristotle coz he manage to create logical theory while I am manage to turn illogical into logic, with this kind of achievement, my name should be listed in Guinness world book of record. What makes me so proud, it because of this, let me turn it into a very interesting story so you guys will not feel bored to read it.

Once upon a time, in a far away land, live a man names “ME”. He has bought a Smartphone and feels very happy. With his phone he open up a FACEBOOK account TWITTER, WECHAT, WHATSAPP and so on. He start to take pictures of his BRANDED CLOTHES, MEALS , MONEY, CARS, GADGETS and many more. He uploads everything to the social media to show it to the world. He did it coz he wants to keep it as a memory at the same time to fulfill his personal satisfaction. Day by day passing by, week turns to years and he live happy ever after..THE END

What a great story from a stupid writer. This is ME and I am the main character of that story. Maybe some of you guys still didn’t get it so let me go through bit by bit. Why I called this one as one of my biggest mistake. I have the right to do what ever I want in my life. But lately I was thinking like maybe this one is not a good idea. Why should I show the world what kind of clothes that I’m wearing while some people in HAITI considered their skin as a clothes, why should I uploads my daily meals if some kids in AFGHANISTAN died in hunger, why should I uploads my cars if student in ZIMBABWE walk miles to the school to get education. Where is the logic? Is this logic? I have a feeling and pretty sure they have feelings too. While I was happy with what I’m doing without realizing I do probably hurt and ruin someone’s feeling. Do I have to proud will all the stupid things I’ve done? Does the world recognize me? After all of this, I make a move to re think again. What ever happen in the past is a worse memory and become a nightmare. What ever action that I take today maybe will be the memories which worth enough to be remember.

This is ME, and this is how stupid I AM. A very good story from a very stupid person. Those who read it, forget it. Those who mind, leave it. If this piece of junk hurt somebody else, I off my hat, I cross my fingers and step a head to say “ ITS NOT MY BUSINESS”  

   

I DON'T KNOW....

Where should I start, I don't even know coz the only thing I knew is the thing that is already make me feel like I know nothing. Every thing has change so fast without i realize that I'm still finding something that I actually dont know.. Hundred questions, thousands of survey but the actual come still vary and never close to the most accurate solution. The more I do the idiot I become, the more I move the the hardest it become.

Let me tell frankly about the things that I've been doing this past few months. I dont even know or realize, one year has pass and proud coz we are still survived and still think to conquer the world that we have been created. This is us, and this is a story about 2 idiots who are think big and try to prove something in order to make sure that this world are worth enough to live. This is a story about changing the CERITA KEDAI KOPI into a REVOlution ROAD.

Me, my brotherhood and even people who knows us very well dont even know what we are trying to prove coz we dont even know why we start every thing. But what we believe, once we start our first step we are not gonna turn around even though the risk is on the high level. We start to forget our confort zone, we start to ignore our family, we start to not taking part in any activities with our close friend but the only thing that we do are keep on thinking and focusing on what we try to develop. problems and obstacles come almost every time but we do never surrender. Some other time people start to think like maybe this is not our path, maybe this is not our destiny, this is not we are suppose to do. what we have to do is take the white flag, put our guns down and surrender. 

we cant even sleep anymore, we cant even enjoy our life like any body else. While people enjoying their days we are sitting and thinking about tomorrow. While people are dreaming in the middle of the night, we are still drinking our hot coffee and figure out what is gonna happen next week. Maybe is too early for us to chase something big or maybe we still not in the right place on the right moment in the right time but what ever it is, we never think to stop this war even the war it self gonna kill us both. we dont even mind what others gonna think, we dont even care what others gonna say coz they dont really know what we have been face this past few months. we already sacrifice everything we have and we can even afford to take any single failure anymore.

pass is pass, any body can throw their critics or comment but for sure its not gonna even make us stop. As long as we dont ask any sympathy from others it means we dont burden any others. those who are trying hard to make us down, we are wishing a very good luck and feel free to continue it. We are here and we are still fighting. If the time is the factor the we are gonna make sure that we are giving time some time. If the change is the matter than, we are going to give chance another chance. This is what we believe and this is us.

I'm standing here together with my fellow colleagues call brotherhood. we are sending a clear message to everybody who stand behind us and think like we are thinking to never stop believing. If today we are nothing and people look down to us is today's problem. If tomorrow we are still fighting and still didnt win the war its tomorrows issues BUT if next few years we stand tall on the mountain that is the consequences from what we sacrifice today and tomorrow. This is US and this is REVO. we are going to keep fighting and we are going to keep moving.          

LOST TAPE ( Interview Between ME and MYSELF )

ME                         : Hi, good morning. Have a seat please. Just call me ME and I,m gonna conduct this interview.

MYSELF               : Hi ME, how are today? Glad to see you

ME                         : Feelin good,Should we start?

MYSELF               : As you wish and I bet I'm ready.

ME                         : The first, the easier, the introduction. Tell me who you are?

MYSELF               : Nice shot, by the way my name is MYSELF, Just call me ASSHOLE coz it suit me nicely and far better than AWESOME. I was born in the middle of nowhere and raise by the most kind hearted man that I ever know with the most beautiful lady in this world. I dream to be like Eistein with my own methodoly coz as far I concern, He was the greatest in his era with his inteligence mind. But, bare in mind, If he still alive, I,m proudly announce that I’m gonna challenge him into a duel and beat him with my stupidity.

ME                         : School and Education please?

MYSELF               : What could I say? School? I dont have it coz my parents did not afford to buy or build a building and turn it into a school. Dont mention the building, even the concrite is far behind from my family’s budget. In fact why did we have to force ourselft to go to the school while most of us didnt even know what is the school for?  Ask yourself, did you go to school to study or you just go coz you have to otherwise your parents will beat your down. OR, maybe some other people goes to school coz they wanna play or maybe coz their boyfried?girlfriend BUT how many of them really go to study to get a better job in the future. How many? Ten? Hundred? Maybe more maybe less. Now, comes the EDUCATION, is it important? Of coz YES, it become one of the top element to reach the fancy destination called SUCCESS. Without education only a few can stand on the top of the world, without education, we can even read or write. Without education, there is no teachers. BUT, how many people in this world think what is education has been create so far? Do one of us ever think that it has a bad side. Take a look at this, EDUCATION create personality, PERSONALITY create power, POWER create people, PEOPLE create war and WAR destroy HUMANITY. Thsi is education that I understand and like one of the actor said, " I go to school coz I know education is important but after finish my school I realize that education is not important anymore. It conclude, without education we dont even know that education is not important".

ME                         : You confuse me, could you just please tell me in a very straight forward about your opinion about people around you and what the world has offer to you?

MYSELF               : Frankly speaking, I dont have any idea about the other people because I knew all of them are busy with their daily routine. Most of them are busy complaining here and there, some of them are really hardworking to discuss other people lifes, some are addicted to become a most popular paparazi, few  of them are really strugling to fight for their future and give some meaning to their life. While, me myself personally too busy playing in my own playground with my stupid experiment to prove that I’m not stupid enough to call stupid. I dont wanna get involve in others life or judge them coz I do really appriciate what they did. Coz without people the word GOSSIP have no meaning, without people, there is no home made video . Without US the the world we are livin in is not called WORLD. Comes to the next, what the world has offer me? A lot for sure. I do take advantage on it in terms of opportunity to stand. While the others, decorate it, develop it, color it, destroy it, I’m just taking my share base on what the amount that the world has offer me. And so far, the world got served. In return, the world serve me better then I deserve.

ME                         : We reserve the best for last, so we’re going to call it a day with this question. The principle of life, do you have it?

MYSELF               : Sorry, I dont have it. But, I hold tide just a few inches in front of my eyes to make sure that i’m gonna see it almost everytime. My principle must be crystal clear. I’m a kind of person that is not easy to be predict. I dont simply welcome people to my playground coz i dont wanna ruin my toys coz I knew it take ages to build it and comes with a high price call RISK. I,m not a person who simply accept others advise coz I dont like to talk about people but I welcome people to come and discuss ideas. So judge me while you can, trust me if you want, believe me if you have to and leave me if I hurt you. I dont care if people dont like my terms of life coz probably I dont like theirs as well. My LIFE is my playground, my PLAYGROUND is my territory, my TERRITORY is my rules, my RULES is my power and the POWER gives me a CHANCE once again to prove that my life is worth enough to be live. This is my playground and its still under construction, experiment on going and if I cant make all of those inside happy at least I’m going to make one in order to ensure that I dont waste the one and the only chance that I have. If I fail, I’m going to risk my own life, but if the experiment success, its going to be a platform to those who are stand  together with me through all the process that the experiment went through.

ME                         : The time has come. So thanx for coming

MYSELF               : Can I ask something?

ME                         : Sure.

MYSELF               : Am I accepted?

ME                         : Well said, couldnt agree more. You are not just crazy but creatively insane. Welcome to the MENTAL RETARDED INSTITUTE  of STUPIDITY. Pack your bag and make yourself comfort.

MYSELF               : Thank you so much sir. I’m not going to fail you and for sure you can count on me. Looking forward to see you again soon.

WHO SIR? ME SIR?

It’s Friday, but lucky its not a Friday blues for me. I woke up this morning and I do realize I was no body, look at the road and I found out that I was far behind every body else.  Some of them are really moving fast, some of them appreciate the view, some are busy with their daily routine but still keep on moving. Then what I do?  I’m standing at the road side, appreciate the view and enjoy the day. Am I moving? Or I just fool my self pretending like nothing to worry, its gonna be a good day, I’m the hero, or I’m just a piece of junk who pretending that I’m the best but leave me with the beg call best for nothing and full with stupidity.

Ego and proud, this is what we are, no body can even deny it. The higher we are the biggest it is. This is one of the best moral values that I learned from the past. While some other people busy to make sure that they are keeping their moral value in the high pride while we are busy keep on making our ego as high as the mountain. The higher it is the proud we are. The more we have, the smaller we look to the others.  Damn, what a pride.  Is this that we’re looking for?   Should we put it as a history of our life? Is this what make us feel happy with our life that we’re  livin in?  Maybe yes and may be not. It defends. Coz what ever circumstances it’s always comes with pros and cons.  Either take the pros ignore the cons or take the cons forget the pros. Easy as like eating burgers.

The habit become the ethic, what ever we do is always become a guideline to what we are looking for without realizing we are actually some times making some a big mistake that change the route of our life. I learn something when I was a kid, in that time I was just one of the kid like the other kids. Playing around like tomorrow gonna dies. I learn one word from the surrounding, it call WHO? ME?. That word becomes a habit among us till now. In that particular time we don’t ever think what is thaw word for? What I knew, it’s a good words to play for.

Now, the flies, I’m getting older and still on the same track as before. But, what I do realize, the words that I love so much is actually is not a good words but killing me softly without realizing it. From one conversation to another conversation then I know, the meaning lies behind of WHO SIR? ME SIR?  Last time we make fun of it, now the world makes fun of me. This word is actually represent who we are and what kind of people we are. Why should we ask who if the finger pointed to our head? Why should we ask who if the eyes are looking deeply to our eyes? And why should we ask who if we are the only people who stand there. The situation makes me crazy but at the same time I was thinking how fool I am. Why should I ask if I can take advantage to volunteer? I don’t lose anything by trying, I don’t even get hurt or died if I fail to do it. Damn, if I realize this thing long time ago maybe I’m not the same anymore. Maybe I am the president but the reality, maybe is just a maybe and the reality is far bitter than the medicine.

What should I do, this is a habit, I can’t even change it anymore. It’s not just me but most of the people do the same like I did. Not many people are brave enough to raise their hand and said “let me do it” once the question has been ask, the member of the club will start busy doing something in order to avoid the situation. Once the finger has point to my head, the question will automatically, who sir? Me sir? If not me then who? The wall behind me? My chair? My books? What a shame for me.  But its ok past is past and at least I realize my mistake and I hope other people realize it too because this is the terms where the words VOLUNTEER is just an ordinary word that means something but scare the most.

This is just a sharing, for some other people out there, but for me, this is another theory that I have to look for. Even just a stupid theory but it make sense to me and change me a bit. SHY? FOOL/ its like its not in my life dictionary anymore since I’ve been called worse. Maybe this is going to change somebody who mind and for those who don’t matter just treat it as a stupid junk from a stupid person like me. Those who like it, love it. Those who don’t , Leave it.

BEAUTY + FULL = BEAUTYFOOL

Is the world move faster? Is the clock shows the right time? Or I’m moving to slow? Damn, where am I? I feel like standing in the middle of nowhere with no light, no oxygen and living me like a dead body roaming around clueless in the most darkest area on the planet.

I don’t event know what I’m trying to express but I do just pick up some title which catch my intension. Beauty and the beast? Fuck, I don’t even know what it is all about. Ignore the beauty, deny the beast coz not matter what it looks like to me, its really doesn’t matter. Who you are? Who I am? No body even wanna know, the more we know the dumbest it looks like. So what the matters actually? Where is the beauty? Is it exist? Or we all just a piece of junk who dare to drink to be something someday but somehow end up like shit call beautyfool. The beauty that we chase even far and far way, meanwhile the fools become our best friend. What a nice live, a worth living world.

What is the meaning of the beauty? Ask your self and keep the answer. Some may said it refers to a woman, some may said the sunset. But what beauty means to me? A beautiful girl passing by and show some intention but no body even notice her, is it beauty? A thousand butterfly flies around the flower on the amazing garden but end up in the bottle. Do we have to call it beauty? A cute charming baby born to the world with the perfect smile and amazing eyes found drown in a drain. Should we define it as a BEAUTY or its actually a BEAUTYFOOL?

Life isn’t as beautiful as what we think, I do define it in my own terms. Beauty is such big things for me. Show me your lovely face with your most wonderful smile and trust me, I don’t even interested. In fact, its not a beauty to me as well. I don’t wanna make this thing too complicated but it means to me a lot. Doing something that I love to do in no matter situation, in no matter obstacle with a people that I trust and respect, I call it beauty. Time is not a factor, money is not the issues. what matter is how I play my role to color the world and make it beautiful.

Try me, then I show you my talent, beat me and I show you my respect, ask me and I show you who I am. Predict me if you can, trust me if you want. But I am the one who lead my life to the direction I want. Be aware, I’ll maybe drag you to my world without you even realize it. This is me, I can crawl with the crowds, walk with the crowds but still can run alone. We can seat together, laugh together but still I can sing alone. I can be the beauty I can be the beast but I’m afraid you will be the victim.

I welcome everybody but I chose the best, I serve everybody but I pick the chosen one. This is me, this how I define my life. The complicated it is the beauty it will be. The harder its is the easier it will be. Its not a terms but it just a theory and the theory complete it and turns the beast in to the most beautiful mind set that ever created. 

EXPECT DE UNEXPECTED

Life is unpredictable, In no matter what, sometimes what ever we expect to come is always end up with the unexpected outcome. Its not happen once but almost every time. This kind of thing is like ruin our life coz mos the unexpected is always on the bad side. Maybe its time to call all the bad things is a luck and all the good things is just accidentally happen. This is much more relevant rather than the other side coz what ever luck we expect to come it always end up accidentally in a deep shit.

I wanna talk about my experience with my previous BOSS who always talk to me about the beauty of working on extra mile, I defined it as doing something beyond our task and I do believe in what He always said coz I'm the one who experience it.I was moving really fast to the top and I don't really expect it even that time I was stay up late in the office just by downloading movies on my computer. Sorry BOSS but I think you know me well more than anybody else. 

So now a days, what we really expect on this terms, what this extra mile really is? I don't wanna talk about extra mile on people who are working in restaurant or whatever kind of jobs on the same level coz they don't even know what is this all about. I don't wanna talk about staying up late in the office for the Government servant coz they define it in a very different way, working hours 8 am to 5 pm, reach the office before 8 am and arrive at home at 4 pm. I'm not talking about all but some of them. Now take this, some people on private company knows very well about this terms, but once again, not all of them but some. working hours till 5 pm but staying in the office till 6 pm and this is really looking good in terms of productivity but please expect the unexpected coz some of them just sitting in front of their computer with their favorite page call FACEBOOK just to avoid the traffic jam. Correct me if I'm wrong but we have to realize it and expect on it coz this is really happen.

When we talk about Law, Rules, Principal and so on, it always come like Criminals goes to jail, Smoking bad for health, Practice make perfect, Siblings stay together as one, First come first serve, As soon as possible and bla bla bla. This is what every people expect but most of the time the unexpected happen on the other way, ruins every thing and put us down. It simple, Criminals goes to jail, thats it, its end up there, nothing more nothing less. Proceed loan on a bank and they will said we'll call you A.S.A.P, done. Go to some counter and you will see " first come first serve " sign together with  "we serve you better ", then what? queuing. This is what suppose to be happen but trust me, maybe some of you guys have a same concept like me, believe in what we call the power of $$$. You got this, criminals is always criminals and jail is just a jail. A few notes of dollar sign under the table will serve you better. Its money talk. Believe in what we call Authority and Tittle. Just walk to the counter, present some card or show some badges and forget about first come first serve coz you will be serve better. Its a cronyism. same thing happen A.S.A.P. if you wait for call then keep on waiting coz  we'll call you A.S.A.P sometimes means a week, a mont, a year or you have to call them unless you have relatives or friends behind the table. It calls friends and family matter. Siblings stays together as one, wow, what a nice family. Is that really happen? YES, in a some reason but most of the time when the tomes is come especially on testament, siblings stays together in a one roof and try to kill each other in other to get more. 

This is what happen and this is what I'm experience before. I expect a good thing base on the process and I got a bad thing after a lot of process. a genius people create laws and the brilliant one ruins it. Working hard for a better future end up with loans, study degree in university to get a high starting salary but jobless at the end. Now what? its fair enough. this is the world we livin in. Maybe we have to start learn how to do a bad things so a good this will come and call it reverse theory of life.

Read it and understand it, take the good one and leave the bad here. No heart feeling and no judging. This is what I'm facing and this is my theory. If this just a nonsense, if this just a bullshit then it suit its name. That what I call it THEORY OF STUPIDITY.

  

  

TIME + LIFE = PROBLEMS

Another stupid junk with a bloody hell tittle full with bullshit. But, its look like I don't really care coz I just wanna express what I feel lately. After calculation to another calculation, it comes with this formula and the outcomes mostly not really the answers. Forget about it coz sometimes it good not to know the answers.

What I do really know about time? what life is all about? where the problems come from? with this question, of coz the answer is, "this is a big problem". No matter how fast I run to chase the time, the time is still not enough for me. or maybe I have to use Train a Grande Vitesse the fastest conventional train to chase it? or maybe there should be more than 24 hours in a day or less than 24 hours. Of course in a day it can be more or less than 24 hours but no body are brave enough to change the format coz it will make everybody busy to change everything especially the watch factory. Take a look at this, if in 1 hour equals to 90 minutes, it means there will be 16 hours per day. If 1 hour equals to 45 minutes, it will be 32 hours per day. But the problem is, are this two new numbers of hours are enough for us? are we gonna solve everything with it? for me the answer is simple YES, I CAN'T  and I don't really sure if anybody can. Ussain Bolt breaking the world record in 100m but still working hard to make it better. 

So, take a look at our life. is it really good, are we happy with it or it full with bullshit call problems. some people said, synchronize your life and the time your have so you will enjoy your lifetime, But how to synchronize it? some people said problem will never be a problem as a long as we know how to manage the time. time is already given and it sharp 24 hours so please be nice with it coz I don't really know how to manage it. some people said time is gold but its funny coz gold is always a gold and never be a time. So, maybe we are the one call problems coz maybe we are the one who never satisfy with what we have. Robertson Family turns ducks into multi billion empire but looks like they still looking for something better. Forget about this coz the more you read the harder it can be and maybe it will lead to another problem.

After think, and  re-think again, I end up with the outcomes call problems. So, maybe I have to use some logics to make sure that problems towards my life will become more colorful and more beautiful. maybe this is the time to smile coz I was lucky and you are lucky coz neither me or you own all the problems, or maybe I have to stop comparing with others coz I don't really have any idea what their journeys is all about, or maybe its true like the old man saying don't ever cry about the past coz its gone, don't worry about the future coz it hasn't arrive. focus on the present coz this is the reality and make it beautiful. fix what ever can be fix, repairs the errors and throw out all the rubbish to the place call history.

Maybe this is the time to call TIME as a powerful HEALS to us, LIFE is a safest PLAYGROUND that we ever had, and PROBLEMS can be define as US. This is gonna make sure that we can play and roam around like nothing ever happen in the most beautiful playground and let the times heals and fix what ever errors come along. But, still have to remember coz it will take some times so be nice and be patient with it. In other words, maybe I have to call it GIVE TIME SOME TIME.

This is a stupid theory but if we can pull out something useful from it, it will define how stupid we are. The good will ignore it coz the are in their comfort zone with their own theory and principal, while the stupid will keep on moving until they find a place that nobody ever been before. At the end of the day, we will sit together and one most valuable treasure call EXPERIENCE  will define who we really are.

WHAT HAPPEN ? AND WHY THIS THING HAPPEN ?

What happen is always a question no matter how we pronounce it, it doesn't really matter either you put a question mark or not, the word will still remain a question.Now, the problem is, do we really get the real answer if we throw this question to somebody else? sometimes the answer is a matter and most of the time its really doesn't a matter.

Take a look at this, more than 12 000 000 people go out and queuing in line to do their responsibilities towards the country in order to change the face of the country last week but, yesterday approximately more than 100 000 people gathering in one place just to show something is not normal has been happen. The question is WHY? WHAT HAPPEN?

Almost every single day, there are people died and killed in Syria and Palestine and its look like most of the people pretending like nothing BUT when 2 people died in Boston most of the top leader in all over the world express their condolence to them. The question is, WHY THIS THING HAPPEN ?

Some homeless go without eating, Elderly go without needed medicine, mentally ill go without treatment, troops go without proper equipment, veterans go without benefits that were promised. But we do keep on donating millions to other country to make sure they do not suffer from poverty and serious illness. Then, WHAT HAPPEN TO US?

Did you guys got the answers? I leave this one to you, yeah you and hope you guys realize what exactly has been happen around us, what has been happen to the land we love. Maybe some people will think that I'm suffer a serious illness, the answer is YES I DO. I am a serious mental retarded in my world that I create by my own self in my complicated imagination coz I love to talk about possibilities AND possibilities sometimes scared other people. Now, the question is WHY?

Think about the words BRAVE, CHANGE and CHANCE. Are we really brave enough? are we really  ready for a change? do we really got a second chance? Please guys give a CHANGE a CHANCE coz no matter how long we gonna live in this beautiful land, we are not gonna have all the time. We are not gonna have a million quality time and quality chance in our life. 

Please be brave enough to step forward, please take the chance before it goes and fade with our scary shadows and please change it before its to late coz no matter who you are and no matter who I am, Its really doesn't matter. What matter is and what are we really looking is, THE ANSWERS. This is because answers always become a question mark in the mind of those who wants to know what's happening

This is what always scared me, this is what I'm chasing for, this is what I'm looking for AND this is ME. The question is always a question, the answer is always a mystery and the mystery is always remain UNTOLD.

Me Versus Mindset

MINDSET, what is it? do I really knows what its all about? of coz not because I just use it when I tried to represent something regarding on something base on my mind. 1 + 1 = 2 is mindset, criminal goes to jail is a mindset, artist with beautiful painting is a mindset and so on..But forget about that, it wasting time to recover every single thing about that and sorry I'm not interested

What I do really interested is the way we use our mindset regarding on something vital call PERSONALITY. How personality actually plays a big role in our life? do it really effect our life, jobs and people around us? The best answers on this modern era is YES. In most people point of view set their mindset as personality is one of the most important part to be judge isn't it? Personality describe and ensure all the models make a good money and sustained in their career.

But now, let see how personality and my mindset works towards my live and my jobs. I do realize, a lot of people I met lately proud of what their have and their title. They use the title to stand the world  and look down to the other people. Take this for example, EXECUTIVE, its a big title isn't it? it comes together with a good income and luxurious life for sure. But now a days, executive is just a title given but doesn't mean you are earn a lot. So please act like what you got coz at the end, the most important thing to look up is the outcome. I rather call a good for nothing, dress like a beggars with my long hairs and roaming around like nothing but hold something that not everybody had. So please, forget about the title, your jobs, your money or what ever and jump in to the others world and experience what they have been face before so you can really understand what the world is. Is easy if we just sitting on the chair behind the table and pretend like you are the boss, roaming around like Donald Trump, smart appearance with the most latest gadgets. The question is, do you really work like your personality? Do the company satisfied with your jobs? If YES, then Alhamdulillah but if NO, What is going to happen when you are  fired because you are good for nothing? Its a big fail and real ashamed if somebody shows you the way out and you struggling outside to find a better life.  Its much more better if we rethink again about our personality towards our achievement coz I do believe like I heard before " the best degree is come from the street "

So the time is come, there is no rooms for people like this here, stop  pretending like you are the best when you are not, stop make fun on other people and the most important things is, please and please do not take advantage from other people sacrifices. We have to realize, somebody in somewhere dress like shit and act like the most fuckers people on earth but earn the most respect from other people.

This is what I see and this is what I experience before. I do judge people coz I dare to be judge by others as well. This is me and this is what I believe. I stand the world with my own feet and rise my family from every single sweat  come out from my skin.But unlucky coz I don't have a lot of money But I was lucky coz have something call BRAIN and MOUTH and I do use both of it to feed my family. 

I write this not because I want to judge anybody but to remind myself to always be myself  coz if I change the way I am, is not just change who I am but is also change the life direction of my family. I experience sickness, I experience poverty, I experience pressure  and everything else BUT, I do manage to find the way out. This is me and this is how I live. A cup of tea, A box of cigarette and  a peace family is more than enough for me.  I'm not looking for wealthiness and I'm not looking for richness. What I want is smooth and easy life circle. Me is always me and you is always you. Read it if you want it, apply it if you like it coz no matter who I am and no matter who you are, it really doesn't matterr. What matter is, only you and me knows it.      

Road To Nowhere

Every person have their own definition about life. No matter what it is, it always confusing coz what ever early prediction, its always never comes with an accurate outcomes. People said that put some sacrifices, hardworks and efforts in order to achieve the goals in life. The question is, how many sacrifices? what kind of efforts? coz sometimes we gamble everything we have but at the end still got nothing fail. Should we restart again? Now open your eyes, look within and ask, am I satisfied with this life I'm living? Is this the world I'm livin' in?

A good adviser told me that life is like a traveler. I have to find the road of success and move on the right track. Stand up when I fall down and keep on moving. What a good advise from a very good adviser. At the age of 25, I ask my self, am I on the right track on the right road? If yes then where is the colors of life? or maybe I was taking the wrong road and for this kind of situation, where this road are going to lead me to? Its going to bring me to nowhere until I find a signboard which clearly sounds " hey buddy, your lost. turn around and start again" OMG should I start again?

Some people also told me to read some kind of books to define what life is really is. I bet most of the people knew " Dare To Fail ", " Do Be Sad " " The Alchemist " and many more. they said read it, apply it coz life is like experiment, the more the better. I read and apply some method but at the end, where I am? I still stand up tall in the middle of nowhere. Then  I ask my self again, am I dare enough to fail? Do I look sad? or maybe I'm not the alchemist. After a fail experiment to another fail experiment, do I have to take one more shoot until I burn my house and come out in front page of local newspaper with a beautyFOOL headlines " Unrecognized Mentalist Succeed to Light Up a Fire on His House with His Stupid Theory " Is this a life for me?

If life is a game, do we have to play it? If life is a song, do we have to sing it? If life is a dream, do we have to realize it? If life is a challenge, do we have to meet it? If live is a love, do we have to enjoy it or if the life is sacrifices, do we have to offer it? Now its time for every each one of us to really think about this coz what ever solution we take, it will define who we are and what life is really is.

Or maybe we have to re think again this philosophy of life, fill what empty, empty what's full, scratch what itches or forget about the past, stop thinking about the present and don't dream about the future. In another simple theory call theory of stupidity, What ever Happen, HAPPEN. think it, swallow it and define it your self. coz for me life is unpredictable and always remain untold until we discovered the real meaning of L.I.F.E         

Can I... ? Can You... ?

 
This is just a simple question but it always make me wonder almost every time when some body throw this question to me, Can You? My answer is always a question mark, Can I?. A negative person like me is always calculating whatever outcomes when it comes to "maybe I can" or "maybe I can't". Some people call it, we have to play safe but there is still a big BUT, do the outcomes is really safe? So what is the actual answers? Am I really brave enough to say NO, I cant? or I'm too gentle to accept the challenge and say YES, I Can? No matter what is the answers, I still have to face two things just right after giving the answers. If I say I can, people will take in two different ways. First, maybe I really can. Second, it just a show off. If the opposite answer given, I can't, people will directly judge and forget to think our real capability and just simply think we are lazy and just living in our comfort zone. So, what is this all about? is it a question? is it an order? or it just a TEST?

Regarding on this matter, it brings me to a simple words call "The Power Of Believing". I have to believe in what I believe and forget about what others think. It doesn't really matter either I'm right or not coz its not them to determine the outcome but me. what ever result at the end of the story, people around me will just wait and give a comment on it. But it always comes a mystery coz in our society that we always promote a good attitude call " Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita " it make people give a very good respond and comment towards the result. If you succeed, people will say "you are really talented" and if you fail people will say "you already try your best and we appreciate your effort" But please bare in mind, don't ever take it for granted coz it shock you. That is not the real society we livin' in. It just an illusion, It just a sweet word to comfort you. So, what exactly happen? where is the mystery? Lets face the real world fella. This is our society, this is our community, this is our culture and this is the real " Budi Bahasa Budaya Kita " open your eyes and open your mind widely and get ready to jump into reality. You are going to get an impress comment at first in front of anybody else but in the different situation, provocation happen. Do you believe it or you just don't realize it. It doesn't really matter at this point and its not going to help you either. If you succeed, people will talk differently among them. You are going to hear this rumors roaming around " I can do better than him or if not because a help of his friend/relatives, he's not going to finish this task " If you fail, here's the famous word " I told you, he can't or if he can't do a simple task like this, how can we trust him to handle another task". Now, what exactly happen here? Is this the culture we believe? or it just a piece of s**t.

Now, what you guys think? are you really believe in what you believe or I'm just start to make you confuse? For get about this and lets take it in a positive way. here's the true story, a man born with no arms and legs and he always said I should have an arms, I should have legs, I can't do this, I can't do that, I'm not going to get married and I'm not going to get child, what kind of people I am? but that was before. Some of you maybe already knew him and some of you maybe don't. A small men with a big spirit that shock the world with his capabilities and he is NICK VUJICIC. He always said to his audience " Its a lie to think that you are not good enough and its lie to think that you are not worth anything" He believes in what he believe and because the power of believing he succeed to make people believe to believe him. Then now comes a time to ask our self, who am I? a normal human being with a complete figure. But, do I use my capabilities towards life? Do I ever make the world realize my existent? Do I belongs here? where was I'd been before? am I on the right track right now? What will happen to my future? Can I make my life worth to remember? Can I survive? Can I be like Nick Vujicic? Can I ? Can I ? Can I ? and a thousand of Can I will cross our mind and leave us with uncertainty with no possible answers. The only most nearest possible accurate answers is MAYBE but when?  Now, later, tomorrow, next year, next decade or NEVER. keep it for your self and answer it base on what you truly believe coz at the end of the day it will reveal who you are.

In order to find out the best illustration of life is only the realms of spirituality that we find the best explanation. As SWAMI VIVEKANANDA once wrote, “this inexplicable cycle of life and death can only be explained as Maya, an illusion. Beyond this lies our true self, our soul which is never born, that never dies, never changes and never goes or comes. Without birth or death, eternal, ever-existing, free, unchangeable and beyond all conditions is this soul of man , the real self of man”.

This real self is not easy as eating junk food to figure out coz our soul is hidden under the veil of Maya and it is only through the lens of life experiences that we can unveil the mystery and reacquaint ourselves with our hidden potentials. Just as a seed needs the right kind of soil, the perfect temperature, air and water to germinate, so too do we need the right circumstances to reveal our true nature. Without the proper opportunity our cherished ideals of bravery, courage, sacrifice, judgment, integrity and unconditional love would never fully manifest.

Think it, evaluate it, analyze it coz if it comes to me, I do really believe that there is something and always be something but still remain something untold.               

Who Is De' Idiots?

A lot of people keep on talking about the idiots, you make mistake then you are the idiot, you do something risky then you the idiot,you dress up like shit then you are the idiot, you do something extraordinary then you are the idiot. What ever we do from a normal life is always call being idiot. It doesnt really matter you are right or not but in the eyes of public, its always come with the terms " IDIOT"

So I come up with some sort of evaluation best on my experience being an idiot. The question is, who is the idiots? What are the idiots do? What are the normal people and the super genius do? There is always something in my mind, keep on thinking about it coz the old man quotes " Dont be afraid of being scared coz its a common sense but only the complete idiots didnt scared of anything " So what is that means? If I leave this to someone and he told me just forget it. it doesnt mean anything. If its have no meaning then why this quote exist? It make me realize that no matter how idiot I am, at least I still can think something posible.

Let makes this thing uncovered regarding of my theory call STUPIDITY. Idiots doesn't scared of anything. So, it possible to say that they are do what ever they want, enjoy their life and prove something bigger at the end of their story while the super genius keep on thinking and figure out the best way to demolish all the idiots and always come up with a new solution at the end of their research. then what is do normal people do? follow the the idiots and being idiots by telling people that its wasting money to higher the super genius with big salary but can prove something in their solution. Create something bigger is much more better than proving a solution. isn't that possible? Creating something is a proven methodology while solution is just a solution and need to be test either its work or not. Now who is the idiots?

Have you ever heard about Bill Gates? Thomas A. Edison? Ratan Tata? and many more. Who exactly they are? except Ratan Tata, the others are the idiots coz they didn't finish their study. Bill Gates withdraw form the university and no body cares about him. Thomas A. Edison call an idiots when he try to incubate the eggs. But now can somebody please tell me what is the first name cross your mind when somebody mention about Windows and Light? Someone call idiots invented the light make make the world brighter. Someone who have incomplete education make us easy to use computer and the person in the 100 dollar note become a president without education. Now, who use the windows? who admire Abraham L? The answer is YOU and ME. Now Who is the idiot?

Keep on complaining about the we dress? Lady Gaga keep on using something unusual and shock the world. She become more wealthy by selling millions of her album and the dress designer become more famous. Who is the customers? We are. A group call jackass try to prove what they call art of science and doing stupid thing most of the time and now they are very well known. Who admired them? We are. A country comedian from Papua call Upen ka Cupen to make fun on stupid things with their mother's tongue on Youtube and now they running their own TV program and even have their own movies. Who watched them? We are. Now, who is the idiots?

While all the idiots working hard of doing stupid things to prove something in other get something by wasting their time, money, energy and what ever they have,  we are busy on provoke something on something stupid in order to get nothing but wasting time, money, energy and what ever we have.

What is this all about? what exactly to me? am I an idiot? or I'm just like the others. soon they will be something to be an evidence on something I do to prove it. The only thing is, When and where? It still hidden behind the half transparent illusion wall in front of my open eyes and still remain untold.         

   

Spongebob Dengan Imaginasinya

Spongebob, wow what amazing cartoon character is it? it was influence me since I was a kid. I almost knew every single episode  and now matter how many times I watch it, I will still laugh all nite long. During my childhood I watch it coz I like it. But now I watch it coz I love it. There is one thing and one thing only that captured my mind about it. Its IMAGINATION. Its imagination makes almost everything possible and inspire now a days. I do not have to explain what imaginations is, coz every people have their own perception towards it and you, me and others have to accept  that imagination keep us alive.
Lets forget about Spongebob, I take one step ahead to make my own opinion regarding on this subject. Saya tidak kenal Mark Zukerberg, Albert Pike, L'enfant dan banyak lagi tokoh lain yang jadi legenda. what I know is their name and their bloody hell faces in the internet. But what exactly their do? Their imagination rule the world and make the entire world shacking. they just make their imagination alive in no matter how. Now, most of the people know what is Facebook, fremason, and other biggest creation from a small people like us.  I still can remember what Thomas Edison said, " Untuk mencipta lampu, I've burn my house and a lot of things. But, I never fail, what  ever happen along the way to the success is been call as a process"  what a words.  this kind of people are awesome  and really make me feel like I am the most idiot in this entire world roaming around with nothing.
Now, masa untuk tanya diri saya, what is exactly I'm doing in my life, what happen with my imagination? I am the one who put such a great imagination before. I was creating such a beautiful palace up in the air, so every time a see it, it will remind me to pun foundation below it in order to get there. Do i have to call this as a process? process of what? process of wasting time. This kind of thing is always make me wonder, but something has cross my mind lately, I realize something. Usually I'm asking my self what I have done to the world, I got the answer. I'm creating a billionaire, saya yang bertanggung jawab jadikan Mark Zukerberb Jutawan. kenapa saya tak sedar selama ini. And, the fact is, bukan saya saja but some of you guys also. we are working hard even really hard as a team to make his imagination come true. Betapa hebatnya saya, betapa hebatnya kita.  I should be proud of it and you guys too. kerja keras kita, Time has been wasted, energy , money, electricity, new laptop and everything. the best part is, we paid everything and get nothing. the most best part is, Mark is sitting in his luxury bungalow, drinking beer while watching his money increase from time to time. This is the power of imagination.
Its time to move fella, start make your day, maybe this is the rite time, I always heard this word from a friend of mine. Yes, I move, I'll make my day but maybe its not on the rite time. Forget about it, now I'm in my own process to give some breath to my imagination. Its going to be alive, I do believe it. If Karl Benz succeed of inventing a car, I'm succeed of driving it. Then what else, everything is already in front of my eyes. what I have to do is, Imagine a small thing and start make it bigger. that is how the imagination works. Sekecil biji sawi mampu membuat saya kenyang sepanjang hari. Did you guys got what it means? no body and no body start from the top accept orang yang terjun payung. Start from a smallest thing, take care of it, love it, feed it, do what ever it takes to make it grow. One day in somewhere there will be something that can be something . What ever and where ever it is, it always be a something  and till now it still hidden and unseen. its just alive in my imagination and still remain untold.

Dunia Dan Isinya

Dunia terus berputar meninggalkan kita terkapai-kapai bersama segala penghuninya. Life- is it good enought? or it just fooling around, no matter what it this, hidup mesti diteruskan..I do really fall in love whit this word " dunia dan isinya" , even I tried to use every sense that I have I still can figured it out what it is all about..people come and go, week in week out but do they really know about it? ask them and bet, for sure you will got the same answer almost every time. same question, same answers from a different subject. So, what do we call it? is it a myth? is it a secret? I leave it to every one of you to discover coz no matter what did you call it it will reveal as a personal opinion which is can explain who you are and who they are..

This is me and this is where I begin. Let me share something  what I learned from the fast regarding on what I try to explain. there is no mathematical theory or other mechanism to reveal everthing about this, but this is what I got, saya akan biarkan dunia terus berputar pada paksinya dan isinya adalah saya and all of you. so what makes me wonder is, do I really play my roll towards this process? do I really connect with others in order to be productive? do I really bend in with the nature to produce balance and harmony towards this world? no matter how far I go, no matter what theory I use, methods, facts even some kinda rumors that i blend in together to find out the most nearest accurate possibilities outcome, the result is always vary from time to time..getting tired and almost fed up with all of this junk then it make me realize that " dunia dan isinya" is not a myth for me, but it something about something that always be something uncovered and remain untold

Take this as a first piece of junk  from a dumb idiot ME. Calculate it, analyze it, figure it out. put some oxygen in and let the carbon out, close your  eyes and breath. open your eyes and Alhamdulillah Syukur we still alive..This is the beauty of the Almighty..