ILLOGICAL IN LOGIC

It’s been awhile I never been here. It’s not about laziness but is about idea. Writing without purpose is like coffee witout sugar. I rather choose to remind silence than talking nonsense coz for me, this kind of bullshit is simply like calculating numbers with the right format but come out with the wrong answers.

I was run out with Ideas until a friend of mine, yeah new friend, never meet him but shot me with this topic. I was thinking like damn, it’s a good topic to be discussed and why I never think this one before. To Whom It May Concern, thanks dude, I do appreciate it. I promise you I will give a fresh breath to this idea base on my own perception. Either you like it or not, I love it.

What is LOGIC? And what is ILLOGICAL? Take a deep breath, don’t panic coz the answers is very simple. Logic is simply something not illogical while illogical is for sure is not logic. It’s simple rite? I told you. Now, lets move a bit further. What happen to the world? Is it been develop or its been ruin? What happen to the civilization? Is it been better or worse than before? What happen to the human being? Are they become more genius or being an asshole? Everybody have their own answers coz you are the one who read it so you are the one who hold the answers. Don’t tell me and please don’t tell anybody else. You open your mouth they read your mind, they read your mind, they will define you. The good things is, you are going to face the reality, the bad thing is, I’m afraid its gonna hurt you, the worse thing is, it take ages to cure the wounds. So, watch out your mouth and take care your of heart coz nobody will but you.

Here is the best part about this topic, I don’t wanna talk about any body else but me. I was figure out some bad habit and illogical but become logic in my daily routine. Now I knew why I’m stupid enough to call stupid and shit, why I did all of this before without realizing the circumstances. What I did before is hunting me today. It goes back to me and become a ghost in my future. What a great fucking memories.

Technologies, it has been develop as fast as the light, trough all the process, it creates a lot of useful stuff to brighten our day and one of it it’s a gadget. A lot of types with a fancy brands from all over the world and I become the victim. Once again, I mention this in a very crystal clear that I’m not talking about anybody else but ME.

Take a look at this, this is what I’m doing before, I was succeed to beat Aristotle coz he manage to create logical theory while I am manage to turn illogical into logic, with this kind of achievement, my name should be listed in Guinness world book of record. What makes me so proud, it because of this, let me turn it into a very interesting story so you guys will not feel bored to read it.

Once upon a time, in a far away land, live a man names “ME”. He has bought a Smartphone and feels very happy. With his phone he open up a FACEBOOK account TWITTER, WECHAT, WHATSAPP and so on. He start to take pictures of his BRANDED CLOTHES, MEALS , MONEY, CARS, GADGETS and many more. He uploads everything to the social media to show it to the world. He did it coz he wants to keep it as a memory at the same time to fulfill his personal satisfaction. Day by day passing by, week turns to years and he live happy ever after..THE END

What a great story from a stupid writer. This is ME and I am the main character of that story. Maybe some of you guys still didn’t get it so let me go through bit by bit. Why I called this one as one of my biggest mistake. I have the right to do what ever I want in my life. But lately I was thinking like maybe this one is not a good idea. Why should I show the world what kind of clothes that I’m wearing while some people in HAITI considered their skin as a clothes, why should I uploads my daily meals if some kids in AFGHANISTAN died in hunger, why should I uploads my cars if student in ZIMBABWE walk miles to the school to get education. Where is the logic? Is this logic? I have a feeling and pretty sure they have feelings too. While I was happy with what I’m doing without realizing I do probably hurt and ruin someone’s feeling. Do I have to proud will all the stupid things I’ve done? Does the world recognize me? After all of this, I make a move to re think again. What ever happen in the past is a worse memory and become a nightmare. What ever action that I take today maybe will be the memories which worth enough to be remember.

This is ME, and this is how stupid I AM. A very good story from a very stupid person. Those who read it, forget it. Those who mind, leave it. If this piece of junk hurt somebody else, I off my hat, I cross my fingers and step a head to say “ ITS NOT MY BUSINESS”  

   

I DON'T KNOW....

Where should I start, I don't even know coz the only thing I knew is the thing that is already make me feel like I know nothing. Every thing has change so fast without i realize that I'm still finding something that I actually dont know.. Hundred questions, thousands of survey but the actual come still vary and never close to the most accurate solution. The more I do the idiot I become, the more I move the the hardest it become.

Let me tell frankly about the things that I've been doing this past few months. I dont even know or realize, one year has pass and proud coz we are still survived and still think to conquer the world that we have been created. This is us, and this is a story about 2 idiots who are think big and try to prove something in order to make sure that this world are worth enough to live. This is a story about changing the CERITA KEDAI KOPI into a REVOlution ROAD.

Me, my brotherhood and even people who knows us very well dont even know what we are trying to prove coz we dont even know why we start every thing. But what we believe, once we start our first step we are not gonna turn around even though the risk is on the high level. We start to forget our confort zone, we start to ignore our family, we start to not taking part in any activities with our close friend but the only thing that we do are keep on thinking and focusing on what we try to develop. problems and obstacles come almost every time but we do never surrender. Some other time people start to think like maybe this is not our path, maybe this is not our destiny, this is not we are suppose to do. what we have to do is take the white flag, put our guns down and surrender. 

we cant even sleep anymore, we cant even enjoy our life like any body else. While people enjoying their days we are sitting and thinking about tomorrow. While people are dreaming in the middle of the night, we are still drinking our hot coffee and figure out what is gonna happen next week. Maybe is too early for us to chase something big or maybe we still not in the right place on the right moment in the right time but what ever it is, we never think to stop this war even the war it self gonna kill us both. we dont even mind what others gonna think, we dont even care what others gonna say coz they dont really know what we have been face this past few months. we already sacrifice everything we have and we can even afford to take any single failure anymore.

pass is pass, any body can throw their critics or comment but for sure its not gonna even make us stop. As long as we dont ask any sympathy from others it means we dont burden any others. those who are trying hard to make us down, we are wishing a very good luck and feel free to continue it. We are here and we are still fighting. If the time is the factor the we are gonna make sure that we are giving time some time. If the change is the matter than, we are going to give chance another chance. This is what we believe and this is us.

I'm standing here together with my fellow colleagues call brotherhood. we are sending a clear message to everybody who stand behind us and think like we are thinking to never stop believing. If today we are nothing and people look down to us is today's problem. If tomorrow we are still fighting and still didnt win the war its tomorrows issues BUT if next few years we stand tall on the mountain that is the consequences from what we sacrifice today and tomorrow. This is US and this is REVO. we are going to keep fighting and we are going to keep moving.          

LOST TAPE ( Interview Between ME and MYSELF )

ME                         : Hi, good morning. Have a seat please. Just call me ME and I,m gonna conduct this interview.

MYSELF               : Hi ME, how are today? Glad to see you

ME                         : Feelin good,Should we start?

MYSELF               : As you wish and I bet I'm ready.

ME                         : The first, the easier, the introduction. Tell me who you are?

MYSELF               : Nice shot, by the way my name is MYSELF, Just call me ASSHOLE coz it suit me nicely and far better than AWESOME. I was born in the middle of nowhere and raise by the most kind hearted man that I ever know with the most beautiful lady in this world. I dream to be like Eistein with my own methodoly coz as far I concern, He was the greatest in his era with his inteligence mind. But, bare in mind, If he still alive, I,m proudly announce that I’m gonna challenge him into a duel and beat him with my stupidity.

ME                         : School and Education please?

MYSELF               : What could I say? School? I dont have it coz my parents did not afford to buy or build a building and turn it into a school. Dont mention the building, even the concrite is far behind from my family’s budget. In fact why did we have to force ourselft to go to the school while most of us didnt even know what is the school for?  Ask yourself, did you go to school to study or you just go coz you have to otherwise your parents will beat your down. OR, maybe some other people goes to school coz they wanna play or maybe coz their boyfried?girlfriend BUT how many of them really go to study to get a better job in the future. How many? Ten? Hundred? Maybe more maybe less. Now, comes the EDUCATION, is it important? Of coz YES, it become one of the top element to reach the fancy destination called SUCCESS. Without education only a few can stand on the top of the world, without education, we can even read or write. Without education, there is no teachers. BUT, how many people in this world think what is education has been create so far? Do one of us ever think that it has a bad side. Take a look at this, EDUCATION create personality, PERSONALITY create power, POWER create people, PEOPLE create war and WAR destroy HUMANITY. Thsi is education that I understand and like one of the actor said, " I go to school coz I know education is important but after finish my school I realize that education is not important anymore. It conclude, without education we dont even know that education is not important".

ME                         : You confuse me, could you just please tell me in a very straight forward about your opinion about people around you and what the world has offer to you?

MYSELF               : Frankly speaking, I dont have any idea about the other people because I knew all of them are busy with their daily routine. Most of them are busy complaining here and there, some of them are really hardworking to discuss other people lifes, some are addicted to become a most popular paparazi, few  of them are really strugling to fight for their future and give some meaning to their life. While, me myself personally too busy playing in my own playground with my stupid experiment to prove that I’m not stupid enough to call stupid. I dont wanna get involve in others life or judge them coz I do really appriciate what they did. Coz without people the word GOSSIP have no meaning, without people, there is no home made video . Without US the the world we are livin in is not called WORLD. Comes to the next, what the world has offer me? A lot for sure. I do take advantage on it in terms of opportunity to stand. While the others, decorate it, develop it, color it, destroy it, I’m just taking my share base on what the amount that the world has offer me. And so far, the world got served. In return, the world serve me better then I deserve.

ME                         : We reserve the best for last, so we’re going to call it a day with this question. The principle of life, do you have it?

MYSELF               : Sorry, I dont have it. But, I hold tide just a few inches in front of my eyes to make sure that i’m gonna see it almost everytime. My principle must be crystal clear. I’m a kind of person that is not easy to be predict. I dont simply welcome people to my playground coz i dont wanna ruin my toys coz I knew it take ages to build it and comes with a high price call RISK. I,m not a person who simply accept others advise coz I dont like to talk about people but I welcome people to come and discuss ideas. So judge me while you can, trust me if you want, believe me if you have to and leave me if I hurt you. I dont care if people dont like my terms of life coz probably I dont like theirs as well. My LIFE is my playground, my PLAYGROUND is my territory, my TERRITORY is my rules, my RULES is my power and the POWER gives me a CHANCE once again to prove that my life is worth enough to be live. This is my playground and its still under construction, experiment on going and if I cant make all of those inside happy at least I’m going to make one in order to ensure that I dont waste the one and the only chance that I have. If I fail, I’m going to risk my own life, but if the experiment success, its going to be a platform to those who are stand  together with me through all the process that the experiment went through.

ME                         : The time has come. So thanx for coming

MYSELF               : Can I ask something?

ME                         : Sure.

MYSELF               : Am I accepted?

ME                         : Well said, couldnt agree more. You are not just crazy but creatively insane. Welcome to the MENTAL RETARDED INSTITUTE  of STUPIDITY. Pack your bag and make yourself comfort.

MYSELF               : Thank you so much sir. I’m not going to fail you and for sure you can count on me. Looking forward to see you again soon.

WHO SIR? ME SIR?

It’s Friday, but lucky its not a Friday blues for me. I woke up this morning and I do realize I was no body, look at the road and I found out that I was far behind every body else.  Some of them are really moving fast, some of them appreciate the view, some are busy with their daily routine but still keep on moving. Then what I do?  I’m standing at the road side, appreciate the view and enjoy the day. Am I moving? Or I just fool my self pretending like nothing to worry, its gonna be a good day, I’m the hero, or I’m just a piece of junk who pretending that I’m the best but leave me with the beg call best for nothing and full with stupidity.

Ego and proud, this is what we are, no body can even deny it. The higher we are the biggest it is. This is one of the best moral values that I learned from the past. While some other people busy to make sure that they are keeping their moral value in the high pride while we are busy keep on making our ego as high as the mountain. The higher it is the proud we are. The more we have, the smaller we look to the others.  Damn, what a pride.  Is this that we’re looking for?   Should we put it as a history of our life? Is this what make us feel happy with our life that we’re  livin in?  Maybe yes and may be not. It defends. Coz what ever circumstances it’s always comes with pros and cons.  Either take the pros ignore the cons or take the cons forget the pros. Easy as like eating burgers.

The habit become the ethic, what ever we do is always become a guideline to what we are looking for without realizing we are actually some times making some a big mistake that change the route of our life. I learn something when I was a kid, in that time I was just one of the kid like the other kids. Playing around like tomorrow gonna dies. I learn one word from the surrounding, it call WHO? ME?. That word becomes a habit among us till now. In that particular time we don’t ever think what is thaw word for? What I knew, it’s a good words to play for.

Now, the flies, I’m getting older and still on the same track as before. But, what I do realize, the words that I love so much is actually is not a good words but killing me softly without realizing it. From one conversation to another conversation then I know, the meaning lies behind of WHO SIR? ME SIR?  Last time we make fun of it, now the world makes fun of me. This word is actually represent who we are and what kind of people we are. Why should we ask who if the finger pointed to our head? Why should we ask who if the eyes are looking deeply to our eyes? And why should we ask who if we are the only people who stand there. The situation makes me crazy but at the same time I was thinking how fool I am. Why should I ask if I can take advantage to volunteer? I don’t lose anything by trying, I don’t even get hurt or died if I fail to do it. Damn, if I realize this thing long time ago maybe I’m not the same anymore. Maybe I am the president but the reality, maybe is just a maybe and the reality is far bitter than the medicine.

What should I do, this is a habit, I can’t even change it anymore. It’s not just me but most of the people do the same like I did. Not many people are brave enough to raise their hand and said “let me do it” once the question has been ask, the member of the club will start busy doing something in order to avoid the situation. Once the finger has point to my head, the question will automatically, who sir? Me sir? If not me then who? The wall behind me? My chair? My books? What a shame for me.  But its ok past is past and at least I realize my mistake and I hope other people realize it too because this is the terms where the words VOLUNTEER is just an ordinary word that means something but scare the most.

This is just a sharing, for some other people out there, but for me, this is another theory that I have to look for. Even just a stupid theory but it make sense to me and change me a bit. SHY? FOOL/ its like its not in my life dictionary anymore since I’ve been called worse. Maybe this is going to change somebody who mind and for those who don’t matter just treat it as a stupid junk from a stupid person like me. Those who like it, love it. Those who don’t , Leave it.

BEAUTY + FULL = BEAUTYFOOL

Is the world move faster? Is the clock shows the right time? Or I’m moving to slow? Damn, where am I? I feel like standing in the middle of nowhere with no light, no oxygen and living me like a dead body roaming around clueless in the most darkest area on the planet.

I don’t event know what I’m trying to express but I do just pick up some title which catch my intension. Beauty and the beast? Fuck, I don’t even know what it is all about. Ignore the beauty, deny the beast coz not matter what it looks like to me, its really doesn’t matter. Who you are? Who I am? No body even wanna know, the more we know the dumbest it looks like. So what the matters actually? Where is the beauty? Is it exist? Or we all just a piece of junk who dare to drink to be something someday but somehow end up like shit call beautyfool. The beauty that we chase even far and far way, meanwhile the fools become our best friend. What a nice live, a worth living world.

What is the meaning of the beauty? Ask your self and keep the answer. Some may said it refers to a woman, some may said the sunset. But what beauty means to me? A beautiful girl passing by and show some intention but no body even notice her, is it beauty? A thousand butterfly flies around the flower on the amazing garden but end up in the bottle. Do we have to call it beauty? A cute charming baby born to the world with the perfect smile and amazing eyes found drown in a drain. Should we define it as a BEAUTY or its actually a BEAUTYFOOL?

Life isn’t as beautiful as what we think, I do define it in my own terms. Beauty is such big things for me. Show me your lovely face with your most wonderful smile and trust me, I don’t even interested. In fact, its not a beauty to me as well. I don’t wanna make this thing too complicated but it means to me a lot. Doing something that I love to do in no matter situation, in no matter obstacle with a people that I trust and respect, I call it beauty. Time is not a factor, money is not the issues. what matter is how I play my role to color the world and make it beautiful.

Try me, then I show you my talent, beat me and I show you my respect, ask me and I show you who I am. Predict me if you can, trust me if you want. But I am the one who lead my life to the direction I want. Be aware, I’ll maybe drag you to my world without you even realize it. This is me, I can crawl with the crowds, walk with the crowds but still can run alone. We can seat together, laugh together but still I can sing alone. I can be the beauty I can be the beast but I’m afraid you will be the victim.

I welcome everybody but I chose the best, I serve everybody but I pick the chosen one. This is me, this how I define my life. The complicated it is the beauty it will be. The harder its is the easier it will be. Its not a terms but it just a theory and the theory complete it and turns the beast in to the most beautiful mind set that ever created. 

EXPECT DE UNEXPECTED

Life is unpredictable, In no matter what, sometimes what ever we expect to come is always end up with the unexpected outcome. Its not happen once but almost every time. This kind of thing is like ruin our life coz mos the unexpected is always on the bad side. Maybe its time to call all the bad things is a luck and all the good things is just accidentally happen. This is much more relevant rather than the other side coz what ever luck we expect to come it always end up accidentally in a deep shit.

I wanna talk about my experience with my previous BOSS who always talk to me about the beauty of working on extra mile, I defined it as doing something beyond our task and I do believe in what He always said coz I'm the one who experience it.I was moving really fast to the top and I don't really expect it even that time I was stay up late in the office just by downloading movies on my computer. Sorry BOSS but I think you know me well more than anybody else. 

So now a days, what we really expect on this terms, what this extra mile really is? I don't wanna talk about extra mile on people who are working in restaurant or whatever kind of jobs on the same level coz they don't even know what is this all about. I don't wanna talk about staying up late in the office for the Government servant coz they define it in a very different way, working hours 8 am to 5 pm, reach the office before 8 am and arrive at home at 4 pm. I'm not talking about all but some of them. Now take this, some people on private company knows very well about this terms, but once again, not all of them but some. working hours till 5 pm but staying in the office till 6 pm and this is really looking good in terms of productivity but please expect the unexpected coz some of them just sitting in front of their computer with their favorite page call FACEBOOK just to avoid the traffic jam. Correct me if I'm wrong but we have to realize it and expect on it coz this is really happen.

When we talk about Law, Rules, Principal and so on, it always come like Criminals goes to jail, Smoking bad for health, Practice make perfect, Siblings stay together as one, First come first serve, As soon as possible and bla bla bla. This is what every people expect but most of the time the unexpected happen on the other way, ruins every thing and put us down. It simple, Criminals goes to jail, thats it, its end up there, nothing more nothing less. Proceed loan on a bank and they will said we'll call you A.S.A.P, done. Go to some counter and you will see " first come first serve " sign together with  "we serve you better ", then what? queuing. This is what suppose to be happen but trust me, maybe some of you guys have a same concept like me, believe in what we call the power of $$$. You got this, criminals is always criminals and jail is just a jail. A few notes of dollar sign under the table will serve you better. Its money talk. Believe in what we call Authority and Tittle. Just walk to the counter, present some card or show some badges and forget about first come first serve coz you will be serve better. Its a cronyism. same thing happen A.S.A.P. if you wait for call then keep on waiting coz  we'll call you A.S.A.P sometimes means a week, a mont, a year or you have to call them unless you have relatives or friends behind the table. It calls friends and family matter. Siblings stays together as one, wow, what a nice family. Is that really happen? YES, in a some reason but most of the time when the tomes is come especially on testament, siblings stays together in a one roof and try to kill each other in other to get more. 

This is what happen and this is what I'm experience before. I expect a good thing base on the process and I got a bad thing after a lot of process. a genius people create laws and the brilliant one ruins it. Working hard for a better future end up with loans, study degree in university to get a high starting salary but jobless at the end. Now what? its fair enough. this is the world we livin in. Maybe we have to start learn how to do a bad things so a good this will come and call it reverse theory of life.

Read it and understand it, take the good one and leave the bad here. No heart feeling and no judging. This is what I'm facing and this is my theory. If this just a nonsense, if this just a bullshit then it suit its name. That what I call it THEORY OF STUPIDITY.

  

  

TIME + LIFE = PROBLEMS

Another stupid junk with a bloody hell tittle full with bullshit. But, its look like I don't really care coz I just wanna express what I feel lately. After calculation to another calculation, it comes with this formula and the outcomes mostly not really the answers. Forget about it coz sometimes it good not to know the answers.

What I do really know about time? what life is all about? where the problems come from? with this question, of coz the answer is, "this is a big problem". No matter how fast I run to chase the time, the time is still not enough for me. or maybe I have to use Train a Grande Vitesse the fastest conventional train to chase it? or maybe there should be more than 24 hours in a day or less than 24 hours. Of course in a day it can be more or less than 24 hours but no body are brave enough to change the format coz it will make everybody busy to change everything especially the watch factory. Take a look at this, if in 1 hour equals to 90 minutes, it means there will be 16 hours per day. If 1 hour equals to 45 minutes, it will be 32 hours per day. But the problem is, are this two new numbers of hours are enough for us? are we gonna solve everything with it? for me the answer is simple YES, I CAN'T  and I don't really sure if anybody can. Ussain Bolt breaking the world record in 100m but still working hard to make it better. 

So, take a look at our life. is it really good, are we happy with it or it full with bullshit call problems. some people said, synchronize your life and the time your have so you will enjoy your lifetime, But how to synchronize it? some people said problem will never be a problem as a long as we know how to manage the time. time is already given and it sharp 24 hours so please be nice with it coz I don't really know how to manage it. some people said time is gold but its funny coz gold is always a gold and never be a time. So, maybe we are the one call problems coz maybe we are the one who never satisfy with what we have. Robertson Family turns ducks into multi billion empire but looks like they still looking for something better. Forget about this coz the more you read the harder it can be and maybe it will lead to another problem.

After think, and  re-think again, I end up with the outcomes call problems. So, maybe I have to use some logics to make sure that problems towards my life will become more colorful and more beautiful. maybe this is the time to smile coz I was lucky and you are lucky coz neither me or you own all the problems, or maybe I have to stop comparing with others coz I don't really have any idea what their journeys is all about, or maybe its true like the old man saying don't ever cry about the past coz its gone, don't worry about the future coz it hasn't arrive. focus on the present coz this is the reality and make it beautiful. fix what ever can be fix, repairs the errors and throw out all the rubbish to the place call history.

Maybe this is the time to call TIME as a powerful HEALS to us, LIFE is a safest PLAYGROUND that we ever had, and PROBLEMS can be define as US. This is gonna make sure that we can play and roam around like nothing ever happen in the most beautiful playground and let the times heals and fix what ever errors come along. But, still have to remember coz it will take some times so be nice and be patient with it. In other words, maybe I have to call it GIVE TIME SOME TIME.

This is a stupid theory but if we can pull out something useful from it, it will define how stupid we are. The good will ignore it coz the are in their comfort zone with their own theory and principal, while the stupid will keep on moving until they find a place that nobody ever been before. At the end of the day, we will sit together and one most valuable treasure call EXPERIENCE  will define who we really are.